Recovery.......

Hm, this few week i keep asking God, i long time didn't post the devotion to my own blog already, so how? how I face my supervisor? and i felt like no interest to continue this blog for devotion.
But God lead me with His word continuously.

When I felt like dis-encourage, Giving up, unfaithful to God.
God always show His merciful to me, His heart of "never give-up"
His Encouragement, His love especially.

As you know I'm a minister in GCC church, already busy for Xmas activities about 2 month for preparation of Drama, Worship Team and especially my Rap SONG "Chinese, English version"
When I was busy for these stuffs... I so so closed with God, always Pray to God for strength and faithful and cry out loud to God because of stressful...
But after 25th... All gone...
I learn from a mistake, "when I'm in trouble, i need God; when all things go OKay... I don't need God anymore..."

Today, I don't dare how people look at me, Don't care about how many days I didn't post my devotion up to this blog.
I want to tell God, God I want start post my devotion again today.
When just now I asked God, God .... Is that I need to pay all my debts to you? "devotion"

God told me with Psalms 1:1-3
He told me don't walk or do something that evil, but plant your position just like a tree planted beside the river, and the tree never "die"

He teach me about what is Rest that pleased to God.
" You Can Rest, But Please Don't Rest With Do Nothing, Or Useless Thing."
He told me, if I pay my debts "devotion" for past 2-3 weeks... what is the purpose?
I shocked and fully agreed.
God is Good, He is so Good.
He said, start today devotion Only..
Don't be religious.
Religious do based on how they behavior only. "hypocritical"

Ok, I surrender to God, even I so shame, how come a leader that no post devotion to blog but with promise?
God break my "leadership" mind.....
I learn, leader not prefect, leader need God too, Leader need encourage, and Leader Need Rest.

Please God, Tell somebody that just like me, no matter in concept or how they think they are...
God, you not only a boss, but you also a comfortable, you beside us when we need you, you puppet us when we need rest, God, You are the Song that make us rest and sleep like a baby.
God I love you, forgive me that I didn't post my devotion when Xmas session... God thanks you for your merciful, I must want to learn from You!!!!
In Jesus Name, Amen!


I learn to be surrender to God even I can escape with a reasonable Reason to not putting up the devotion into Blog...
Because I don't want to lie my God.