老婆
在我还没有跟你结婚的时候，已经想了做了你的老公要让你快快乐乐，好好成为你的老公，让你高兴，享受你文化背景不能享受的快乐。
那年我们也结婚了。
但是，往往真的预料不到，你的老公我，尽力着把一切困扰情绪或交感神经的疾病一一的解除，但始终还是脑部跟身体好像不听话，抗议不舒服，我真的不懂如何表达我的身心的状况。
我很努力的想解决方案，但是真的筋疲力尽了。
我好像真的有了焦虑症，恐慌症。
我幻想以为很活泼的男士，突然成为了你的有焦虑症的丈夫，真的为你感到不值得，仿佛踏入错了船。
我的日子还有你的一生，真的不懂如何可以配合。
说真的很想带你到处奔看，观赏我们没有去过的大自然，很大的超市，出名的地方。
但是，多人的地方我有怕了，怎么样好。
我知道你觉得我是对号入座，天天做研究，不能好好的生活，看论文，看症状符不符合。
很常看到你不想看到我吃焦虑的药。
我也很煎熬，很想好起来。不想让你觉得一世要跟着有神经病的人。
在药的依赖，我也尽量故意减低，知道很厉害发作时，从新再来增加药量。
我也不知道为什么这个焦虑症和恐慌会来到我的生命。
我很尽责，很热观，想法很另类，很努力，很孝顺长辈，很好处事待人。
我真的不知道。
会不会是工作，还是我以前做错了的事，在我的心里耐不住...?
都做了颈椎的手术了，真的希望康复后，我的症状会好。
能够至少及格能做您要的老公，田嘉禾。
我也是很难过，我的身体不懂怎么了。
我很想要回以前的我，但是好像很难。
加上我家人的文化给了你许多压力，我真的无能为力。
在没有田嘉禾的合好之下，也担心你也被拼到有忧郁和焦虑。
假如一切都照旧和加重的话，这一生我和你真的很难熬过。
我了解你很不耐烦我的症状了。
我知道你在莫名忍受我的症状，习惯，想法。
没有解决方案，只好一路一路走吧，假如这一生真的忍受不了，一切可以舒缓或拿走这些链接性的问题，我都愿意配合，只要可以让你舒服，高兴，享受人生。
我只能慢慢了，不能很活泼了，我的心脏会很怪，脑会很怪，身心结合不能。
我自认我真的无能。
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Built by Malaysia.
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03152017 0500PM, Sea Swim, Death's Shadow. Survival, Helpless, No one knows. Jesus spoke
03.15.2017
05:00PM - decided to go to the beach and have a ocean swim.
05:30PM - Swimming, deeper and deeper and deeper, worth it, using every stroke that I master, butterfly still learning.
06:20PM - maybe is time to swim back to shore, depth roughly have 3 of me.
Panic come when I observe everything in term of distance and indication still remain far and stagnant, as I blast swim with freestroke, breaststroke.
I begin to encounter fear, panic and helpless, as I'm far from shore, and I can't hardly see beach, but only tall tree from the far.
My mind become to mess up and emotionless, as I figure out I'm in trouble swimming back to shore.
Negative mind begin to strike my mental, as theory of ocean wave pulling.
I had no time to shout, and I knew that was pointless for me to shout for help as no body I could see, and no ship around as well.
I begin to lost track although shore was in front of me, energy drained, my mind mess-up, and lost time.
Sunset, half-sun gone caused me panic more, light started to fade off, and I knew that without sunlight, my sight could had lost everything as indication.
Free style, breast stroke, back stroke.
Stroke that I mastered, caused me more fear, as I performed my master-stroke but it felt like effortless to the distance between me and shore.
I just keep on routinely swim 3 stroke, free style and breast stroke caused me panic more, as I keep swimming and my eyes saw everything un-moved.
I'm too fear and panic to take a test of the depth with what I usually do, I'm paniced and I hardly inhaled and exhaled slowly my breathe, tensed.
Back stroke with hand pedal side by side, spared me a little time to rest and talk to my Jesus.
Through out all these chaos, I able to listen Jesus, my word, and the negative thought.
I'm beside you, keep swimming, and do not fear.
Why am I here, why I never knew I'm so damn far.
I'm hope I don't die like this, I hope someone know I'm seeking for help.
I'm gonna die if sunlight goes down.
Have faith, every life-journey I won't let you be harmed or cause life lost.
I'm your God. I hope someone tell me end soon, I hope someone tell me it is okay, but cannot, I need to be kept on swimming as I could. But all the visual still unchanged despite my effort, and sunset almost end.
As I swimming and exhaustively drank few times of sea water even BACKSTROKE, there were 3 voices in my mental, I forgot my exhausted, forgot my muscle burnt or whatever, I knew I'm in survival mode, eyes big. I had no emotion, but to keep swim toward shore, the only things that I thought left me anchored was my swimming gaggle that no yet leak in a drop of sea water, I could not imagined if my gaggle leaked in some sea water, I guess I will be more trouble in surviving these.
As these voices, and undestinated-effort keep routine, I boldly and felt like giving one more time to test the depth using my body, and I madly did it, it reach 3/4 of my height.
I surrender my mental to Jesus, as I kept on jumped up and dived down to touch the sandbed and jumped up again to catch breathe, with this I able to at least predict I'm little and little getting near to the shore and getting shallow bit by bit.
I kept on telling Jesus I'm sorry, but I didn't understand why, I felt like I'm admitting wrongs to my dad, as like I done things wrong that I don't even know.
Bit by Bit, started to walk toward the shore, from surface of my face, until chest, stomach, leg, knee, finally small leg.
I begin to blank and felt a bit dizzy as I on shore, my muscle trigger to soar, and I started to tremble, but I just kept cool, I felt my face whitish as my body went so pale.
As I walked through the way to toilet, I'm tremble and speechless.
No one really there along my way, only night-guard smile at me, and my auntie that smile cause of I'm back to place.
No one knows it.
This was not a test to gain a lesson, but a real visitation to the shadow of death when no one knows it, , light fading out, lost of time, lost track of distance, no mathematics, no ships around, helpless, mentally torture, sight-seeing cause panic and by all myself.
But through these death's shadow, now I able to feel thankful to all tangible people and things around of me, have no point to go into depression, blaming or anything that once felt doesn't fair.
I'm thankful, and speechless. Jesus's word is important, and it always work and able to apply to any circumstances even to the death or not.
I begin to think that Iron-Man swimming contest do have indication of distance, guards and mind knowing that people around are watching. I found that I'm too crazy ended-up floating on the sea without all these, I'm not into Iron-Man swimming that time, I'm nearly dead surviving.
If there is no God's word intervene into the chaos mentally fight, I could not guarantee I able to jot all these words here.
That's so real, panic and fear usually may cause life lost even only depth of 3 of me. When theory hit in and I start panic, all my boldness gone, my muscle, mind connection all disconnect.
Backstroke allowed me to take rest, but unable to track things around me.
Now I understand why there gonna need meter indication, buddy system, guards when doing swimming contest, it provide safe-mind and guide to the swimmer, without that, the swimmer may ended up like me, floater, panic and chaos.
Now my body muscle soar, small appetite, and image and feeling feel so fresh yet.
I thank God, the words, the bible reading, the phrases become rhema that cheer me or comfort me and gave me so much strength from mind to the body while I'm in deep shit, life threat.
What things can got worst again, even God knows and He saves.
I gonna go back to swim, but next time no deeper and deeper, but just beside the shore, and shallow.
end.
(Visibility: 4 meter. Creature: NONE. Depth: 3 of me _ Sand was cold and sticky, shallow part sea full of sand floating)
05:00PM - decided to go to the beach and have a ocean swim.
05:30PM - Swimming, deeper and deeper and deeper, worth it, using every stroke that I master, butterfly still learning.
06:20PM - maybe is time to swim back to shore, depth roughly have 3 of me.
Panic come when I observe everything in term of distance and indication still remain far and stagnant, as I blast swim with freestroke, breaststroke.
I begin to encounter fear, panic and helpless, as I'm far from shore, and I can't hardly see beach, but only tall tree from the far.
My mind become to mess up and emotionless, as I figure out I'm in trouble swimming back to shore.
Negative mind begin to strike my mental, as theory of ocean wave pulling.
I had no time to shout, and I knew that was pointless for me to shout for help as no body I could see, and no ship around as well.
I begin to lost track although shore was in front of me, energy drained, my mind mess-up, and lost time.
Sunset, half-sun gone caused me panic more, light started to fade off, and I knew that without sunlight, my sight could had lost everything as indication.
Free style, breast stroke, back stroke.
Stroke that I mastered, caused me more fear, as I performed my master-stroke but it felt like effortless to the distance between me and shore.
I just keep on routinely swim 3 stroke, free style and breast stroke caused me panic more, as I keep swimming and my eyes saw everything un-moved.
I'm too fear and panic to take a test of the depth with what I usually do, I'm paniced and I hardly inhaled and exhaled slowly my breathe, tensed.
Back stroke with hand pedal side by side, spared me a little time to rest and talk to my Jesus.
Through out all these chaos, I able to listen Jesus, my word, and the negative thought.
I'm beside you, keep swimming, and do not fear.
Why am I here, why I never knew I'm so damn far.
I'm hope I don't die like this, I hope someone know I'm seeking for help.
I'm gonna die if sunlight goes down.
Have faith, every life-journey I won't let you be harmed or cause life lost.
I'm your God. I hope someone tell me end soon, I hope someone tell me it is okay, but cannot, I need to be kept on swimming as I could. But all the visual still unchanged despite my effort, and sunset almost end.
As I swimming and exhaustively drank few times of sea water even BACKSTROKE, there were 3 voices in my mental, I forgot my exhausted, forgot my muscle burnt or whatever, I knew I'm in survival mode, eyes big. I had no emotion, but to keep swim toward shore, the only things that I thought left me anchored was my swimming gaggle that no yet leak in a drop of sea water, I could not imagined if my gaggle leaked in some sea water, I guess I will be more trouble in surviving these.
As these voices, and undestinated-effort keep routine, I boldly and felt like giving one more time to test the depth using my body, and I madly did it, it reach 3/4 of my height.
I surrender my mental to Jesus, as I kept on jumped up and dived down to touch the sandbed and jumped up again to catch breathe, with this I able to at least predict I'm little and little getting near to the shore and getting shallow bit by bit.
I kept on telling Jesus I'm sorry, but I didn't understand why, I felt like I'm admitting wrongs to my dad, as like I done things wrong that I don't even know.
Bit by Bit, started to walk toward the shore, from surface of my face, until chest, stomach, leg, knee, finally small leg.
I begin to blank and felt a bit dizzy as I on shore, my muscle trigger to soar, and I started to tremble, but I just kept cool, I felt my face whitish as my body went so pale.
As I walked through the way to toilet, I'm tremble and speechless.
No one really there along my way, only night-guard smile at me, and my auntie that smile cause of I'm back to place.
No one knows it.
This was not a test to gain a lesson, but a real visitation to the shadow of death when no one knows it, , light fading out, lost of time, lost track of distance, no mathematics, no ships around, helpless, mentally torture, sight-seeing cause panic and by all myself.
But through these death's shadow, now I able to feel thankful to all tangible people and things around of me, have no point to go into depression, blaming or anything that once felt doesn't fair.
I'm thankful, and speechless. Jesus's word is important, and it always work and able to apply to any circumstances even to the death or not.
I begin to think that Iron-Man swimming contest do have indication of distance, guards and mind knowing that people around are watching. I found that I'm too crazy ended-up floating on the sea without all these, I'm not into Iron-Man swimming that time, I'm nearly dead surviving.
If there is no God's word intervene into the chaos mentally fight, I could not guarantee I able to jot all these words here.
That's so real, panic and fear usually may cause life lost even only depth of 3 of me. When theory hit in and I start panic, all my boldness gone, my muscle, mind connection all disconnect.
Backstroke allowed me to take rest, but unable to track things around me.
Now I understand why there gonna need meter indication, buddy system, guards when doing swimming contest, it provide safe-mind and guide to the swimmer, without that, the swimmer may ended up like me, floater, panic and chaos.
Now my body muscle soar, small appetite, and image and feeling feel so fresh yet.
I thank God, the words, the bible reading, the phrases become rhema that cheer me or comfort me and gave me so much strength from mind to the body while I'm in deep shit, life threat.
What things can got worst again, even God knows and He saves.
I gonna go back to swim, but next time no deeper and deeper, but just beside the shore, and shallow.
end.
(Visibility: 4 meter. Creature: NONE. Depth: 3 of me _ Sand was cold and sticky, shallow part sea full of sand floating)
2 Bird Cages - Episode 1
Winds and strikes lay upon, no matter how sweat and trembling cold hit taking place, there is no little one still able to bring warm to them, recovered-wound that sleep on the skin forever.
Once upon a time, upon the sky able to visualize all the bird were munching and picking the tiny logs to build their own house as every bird always do, as we know this will be the culture for all living to shows its life's performance and production, well.
Hot day, young Zajia carry a strong-log fly to the nest to hope for more shelter and security, this nest is something that means to himself, because the nest able to provide foods and water to Zajia's not merely family but also the surrounding community! What a life that Zajia had in responsibility, to maintain and to learn.
Then came across a tiny female bird, fly-by without whispering a flick. That's weird, it caught Zajia's attention, yet without any chances, the busyness of them just drove them by in the midst of the air, birds continue to sing and the feather sometimes drop onto the ground as usual regardless light or at night.
Oppsss, Zajia's log miss-tune and fallen onto the corner from the nest, and understand that it need special picking helps from other species of bird! Whispering whispering whispering, finally caught the attention of the group of bird! After few seconds, the group of bird lazily just instruct picker to the nest that the log miss-tuned. Woooommmm, what... hey, the tiny female-bird! Zajia just whisperless but to open the nest and pin-point the problem to the "specialist bird", the tiny female bird flick the wing with strong feathers, begin to pick pluck and tune the strong-log, wow! Amazing, without any fails, the log be together again with the logs, wow! Nest is secured again, phew! Zajia appreciate so much for the picking and bow-down the wing toward the little tiny bird, yes as usual, without any flick or anything, the tiny bird just fly away and join back to the group of bird.
As day past by, yupe... problem of the nest, is the same log that keep Zajia headache, therefore, whisper whisper whisper, the same little tiny bird come again for picking... wait, not so easy, this problem keep Zajia whisper about 5-6 times, and miraclely the same tiny ... tiny smart bird keep on cleaning the mess! Wohoo... what a patience female-bird. Her perseverance and excellency begin to draw attention not only Zajia, but surrounding birds too!
So, due to the inconvenience for keeping whispering, addition the female-bird keep on come and forth regarding tiredness and day-light. Zajia begin to fly-by and keep beside the female-bird to contribute some positive encouragement and also plus appreciation. In these flying-by, they start to at least communicate and singing! Fascinating! Zajia even share the information of location that worm hide, they even go catch worms for daily food, and they start to become buddy in living, oh yeah~
Zajia singing out the best of him, and does little female-bird too, and through the singing they get to learn the 2 different type of species, reading the feathers and showing the wing pattern that their culture taught, the concept of flying and guideline of catching different type of worms. And finally, the female-bird is called, Peazcock, the very very native bird of the land, even Zajia also need moments to dive in the knowledge of the native-bird. Peazcock, Zajia only manage to remember after all the details that Peazcock gave, but both bird are happily singing together as like no more picking!
End episode - to be continue...
Once upon a time, upon the sky able to visualize all the bird were munching and picking the tiny logs to build their own house as every bird always do, as we know this will be the culture for all living to shows its life's performance and production, well.
Hot day, young Zajia carry a strong-log fly to the nest to hope for more shelter and security, this nest is something that means to himself, because the nest able to provide foods and water to Zajia's not merely family but also the surrounding community! What a life that Zajia had in responsibility, to maintain and to learn.
Then came across a tiny female bird, fly-by without whispering a flick. That's weird, it caught Zajia's attention, yet without any chances, the busyness of them just drove them by in the midst of the air, birds continue to sing and the feather sometimes drop onto the ground as usual regardless light or at night.
Oppsss, Zajia's log miss-tune and fallen onto the corner from the nest, and understand that it need special picking helps from other species of bird! Whispering whispering whispering, finally caught the attention of the group of bird! After few seconds, the group of bird lazily just instruct picker to the nest that the log miss-tuned. Woooommmm, what... hey, the tiny female-bird! Zajia just whisperless but to open the nest and pin-point the problem to the "specialist bird", the tiny female bird flick the wing with strong feathers, begin to pick pluck and tune the strong-log, wow! Amazing, without any fails, the log be together again with the logs, wow! Nest is secured again, phew! Zajia appreciate so much for the picking and bow-down the wing toward the little tiny bird, yes as usual, without any flick or anything, the tiny bird just fly away and join back to the group of bird.
As day past by, yupe... problem of the nest, is the same log that keep Zajia headache, therefore, whisper whisper whisper, the same little tiny bird come again for picking... wait, not so easy, this problem keep Zajia whisper about 5-6 times, and miraclely the same tiny ... tiny smart bird keep on cleaning the mess! Wohoo... what a patience female-bird. Her perseverance and excellency begin to draw attention not only Zajia, but surrounding birds too!
So, due to the inconvenience for keeping whispering, addition the female-bird keep on come and forth regarding tiredness and day-light. Zajia begin to fly-by and keep beside the female-bird to contribute some positive encouragement and also plus appreciation. In these flying-by, they start to at least communicate and singing! Fascinating! Zajia even share the information of location that worm hide, they even go catch worms for daily food, and they start to become buddy in living, oh yeah~
Zajia singing out the best of him, and does little female-bird too, and through the singing they get to learn the 2 different type of species, reading the feathers and showing the wing pattern that their culture taught, the concept of flying and guideline of catching different type of worms. And finally, the female-bird is called, Peazcock, the very very native bird of the land, even Zajia also need moments to dive in the knowledge of the native-bird. Peazcock, Zajia only manage to remember after all the details that Peazcock gave, but both bird are happily singing together as like no more picking!
End episode - to be continue...
Privilege!!!
In my Christianity journey with God, there is one pastor that enlighten, open-up, and taught me about what it's mean to be a christian that ought to be by according to Bible.
The pastor bring bible come really alive to me, into my life, and my though-ability.
Remember there was time that Christian do not touch Harry Potter production? Remember when there was the time do not listen to music that produced by celebrities? Remember when there was the time christian do not wear trendy attire?
And yupe, I believe many christian understand these things.
I very idolize this pastor so much, because he is the one that not only bring bible come alive, yet he show us bible word-by-word that christian should no focus on these things but to really live with God in freedom and glory to glory.
He is none other then Pastor Kong Hee, CHC senior pastor + founder.
And there was a time as well, when I listen to his cd sermon, or youtube sermon, saw and listen to the way he preach the Word mighty, praise and worship God so vibrantly.
In midst I though to myself, what if a day, I can serve God as drummer in Pastor Kong Hee service. I will be die with no complaint seriously. What if I got the chance to see Pastor Kong Hee's back when in midst service, it will be miracle and impossible scenery.
Guess what, yesterday and today I been blessed with massive privilege to serve as drummer in Pastor Kong Hee's service, 2 days!!!
The feeling was like, I'm heading to war with a legend war-leader that everybody know, and no one get the chance easily to war with the legend warrior. When the legend warrior roar, all enemies fells apart and tremble, and me and all the winning group stepping the enemies head and chanting victory.
It just not everybody can had such dream come to true.
I need to brag it, cause this will be my life achievement not only in my ministry journey or church-life, but it will be my "life" achievement. True say, if you let me choice Jay Chow or Pastor Kong Hee to take picture or fellowship with, I indeed will jump to Pastor Kong Hee and hug him first before you offer the option.
I will tell Jesus I serve as drummer boy if I meet Jesus one day in the heaven.
Pastor Kong Hee is the major pastor that bring revival and raise the young-generation for God's kingdom. What else I can say, I have the privilege to serve Pastor Kong Hee with my little talent.
More than enough I should say, and these experience I truly will share to my children when times come. I serve the man of God!!!
God, you watched me right? the time when I thought to myself "naively".
People sure will laugh if that time I the thought to just anybody.
But God, I admit myself I'm not perfect at all all all. God you raise me, enlighten my, brew me with your plan in me.
God, let's get your job done in me anytime, I'm always open to you no matter what situation I'm in.
By the way, really looking forward like what pastor said publicly, pastor might bring his chc team to here GCC and serve God and bless the people!!! Of course, it will be great if the team allow us to gel-up and join them to worship God with congregation! Wohoooo!
God, you are watching right, hehehehehehe... and Amen!
:D Privilege, God I love You!
The pastor bring bible come really alive to me, into my life, and my though-ability.
Remember there was time that Christian do not touch Harry Potter production? Remember when there was the time do not listen to music that produced by celebrities? Remember when there was the time christian do not wear trendy attire?
And yupe, I believe many christian understand these things.
I very idolize this pastor so much, because he is the one that not only bring bible come alive, yet he show us bible word-by-word that christian should no focus on these things but to really live with God in freedom and glory to glory.
He is none other then Pastor Kong Hee, CHC senior pastor + founder.
And there was a time as well, when I listen to his cd sermon, or youtube sermon, saw and listen to the way he preach the Word mighty, praise and worship God so vibrantly.
In midst I though to myself, what if a day, I can serve God as drummer in Pastor Kong Hee service. I will be die with no complaint seriously. What if I got the chance to see Pastor Kong Hee's back when in midst service, it will be miracle and impossible scenery.
Guess what, yesterday and today I been blessed with massive privilege to serve as drummer in Pastor Kong Hee's service, 2 days!!!
The feeling was like, I'm heading to war with a legend war-leader that everybody know, and no one get the chance easily to war with the legend warrior. When the legend warrior roar, all enemies fells apart and tremble, and me and all the winning group stepping the enemies head and chanting victory.
It just not everybody can had such dream come to true.
I need to brag it, cause this will be my life achievement not only in my ministry journey or church-life, but it will be my "life" achievement. True say, if you let me choice Jay Chow or Pastor Kong Hee to take picture or fellowship with, I indeed will jump to Pastor Kong Hee and hug him first before you offer the option.
I will tell Jesus I serve as drummer boy if I meet Jesus one day in the heaven.
Pastor Kong Hee is the major pastor that bring revival and raise the young-generation for God's kingdom. What else I can say, I have the privilege to serve Pastor Kong Hee with my little talent.
More than enough I should say, and these experience I truly will share to my children when times come. I serve the man of God!!!
God, you watched me right? the time when I thought to myself "naively".
People sure will laugh if that time I the thought to just anybody.
But God, I admit myself I'm not perfect at all all all. God you raise me, enlighten my, brew me with your plan in me.
God, let's get your job done in me anytime, I'm always open to you no matter what situation I'm in.
By the way, really looking forward like what pastor said publicly, pastor might bring his chc team to here GCC and serve God and bless the people!!! Of course, it will be great if the team allow us to gel-up and join them to worship God with congregation! Wohoooo!
God, you are watching right, hehehehehehe... and Amen!
:D Privilege, God I love You!
恩典之出外公干
如何开始
就，大老板吩咐交托我从未做过的事。
给了两个联络号码，我就答应而跳进水，以信心来接受挑战。
信心来之于耶稣，跳时当然少不了耶稣。
那三天两夜，真的是我看见看见不到的耶稣在引领我，提供我，沙漠开江河。
连在当地有名声的公司都好奇问问本小弟是如何够办的到，我分享时，嘴巴都能说favor.
不管什么皮肤颜色，我都有联络和交谈，是国民不得想象的事，连我自己都问我自己如何办到，真的，一切就如从高层（天堂）来一一把难题，拦住挪开，本小弟就如有云布载我，一切困难都越过。
高墙多高，一一越过。
上帝提供人，很准的时间，就地方，让我发现到耶稣在我身边。
不好的，不友善的，不知道该如何做的，都一一的让我跨出不辛。
真的言语无法描述啊，全部负责的人都帮忙我。
人人都说不可能，很麻烦的，耶稣在我身边说，一齐面对。
辛苦的，耶稣提供我舒适，流汗的，耶稣让我更健康，更有智慧。
说话的，耶稣教导我话说。花费的，耶稣让我有山靠。
感恩，感恩，感恩。
耶稣。。。你是谁，为什么。有时真的得不到答案
但是，你就是如此，人就是不信你。
但是，耶稣我知道你是个很棒的画家。
在我们未认定或表达于你时。
你为我画出了我给你的答案。
阿门。
就，大老板吩咐交托我从未做过的事。
给了两个联络号码，我就答应而跳进水，以信心来接受挑战。
信心来之于耶稣，跳时当然少不了耶稣。
那三天两夜，真的是我看见看见不到的耶稣在引领我，提供我，沙漠开江河。
连在当地有名声的公司都好奇问问本小弟是如何够办的到，我分享时，嘴巴都能说favor.
不管什么皮肤颜色，我都有联络和交谈，是国民不得想象的事，连我自己都问我自己如何办到，真的，一切就如从高层（天堂）来一一把难题，拦住挪开，本小弟就如有云布载我，一切困难都越过。
高墙多高，一一越过。
上帝提供人，很准的时间，就地方，让我发现到耶稣在我身边。
不好的，不友善的，不知道该如何做的，都一一的让我跨出不辛。
真的言语无法描述啊，全部负责的人都帮忙我。
人人都说不可能，很麻烦的，耶稣在我身边说，一齐面对。
辛苦的，耶稣提供我舒适，流汗的，耶稣让我更健康，更有智慧。
说话的，耶稣教导我话说。花费的，耶稣让我有山靠。
感恩，感恩，感恩。
耶稣。。。你是谁，为什么。有时真的得不到答案
但是，你就是如此，人就是不信你。
但是，耶稣我知道你是个很棒的画家。
在我们未认定或表达于你时。
你为我画出了我给你的答案。
阿门。
谁才是含有传承之自然能力
一间家，当爸爸和妈妈都不在的时候，很自然的孩子就必须接手一切所留下的好与坏，当然也只有孩子可以，不能让外人来管。
但是，若一个团队没有孩子呢？含有传承能力在于哪里？是里头从小到大都是很卖力的成员还是来了蛮久也很卖力的成员?
若你说当然给从小被装备到大的成员，因为比较有前领导者的风范。我觉得没有错。
但是，假如一半来的成员呢？也是卖力的，不可以吗？
对于我而言，传承这门科目，不是在于长辈给不给。
而是不管哪一类的成员，都要从生命潜质而开始论定。
给一个家背景很很有钱但是不敬虔的成员，你会放心吗？
给一个家背景很没有什么能力的成员，你放心吗？
但若成员自己的生命潜质很强的话，我会考虑。
他/她不必什么什么从小装备或什么的。
只要肯愿意就能了。
若你是训练师，你能够咬定从小装备的一定能够有潜质吗？对方可以承担你还未想到的压力吗？若咬定，你会很失望，或很自大。
没有从小被装备的，也能够一下抓到一模一样前领导者的风范，甚至120%，这是可能，但也不能咬定。
上帝预备的，可能就是我们没有咬定的那位，让我们且地的崩溃3天重建。
当然我们也要在上帝没有让我们知道的时候，我们也要算好盘，未雨绸缪。
所以，传承事不能够完全用现有策略来咬定，我们就只能做该做的，行所允许的，让上帝用火燃提炼出金来，谁知呢？
最主要是要在规矩内操作，好让肥沃的泥土可以得以保存。
不管在哪里一方，就先做好做足自己的岗位，本份，运用上天给的恩典，全心服侍。
相信对方因此就会跟着来，跟从神，而不是做轮班。
-完-
但是，若一个团队没有孩子呢？含有传承能力在于哪里？是里头从小到大都是很卖力的成员还是来了蛮久也很卖力的成员?
若你说当然给从小被装备到大的成员，因为比较有前领导者的风范。我觉得没有错。
但是，假如一半来的成员呢？也是卖力的，不可以吗？
对于我而言，传承这门科目，不是在于长辈给不给。
而是不管哪一类的成员，都要从生命潜质而开始论定。
给一个家背景很很有钱但是不敬虔的成员，你会放心吗？
给一个家背景很没有什么能力的成员，你放心吗？
但若成员自己的生命潜质很强的话，我会考虑。
他/她不必什么什么从小装备或什么的。
只要肯愿意就能了。
若你是训练师，你能够咬定从小装备的一定能够有潜质吗？对方可以承担你还未想到的压力吗？若咬定，你会很失望，或很自大。
没有从小被装备的，也能够一下抓到一模一样前领导者的风范，甚至120%，这是可能，但也不能咬定。
上帝预备的，可能就是我们没有咬定的那位，让我们且地的崩溃3天重建。
当然我们也要在上帝没有让我们知道的时候，我们也要算好盘，未雨绸缪。
所以，传承事不能够完全用现有策略来咬定，我们就只能做该做的，行所允许的，让上帝用火燃提炼出金来，谁知呢？
最主要是要在规矩内操作，好让肥沃的泥土可以得以保存。
不管在哪里一方，就先做好做足自己的岗位，本份，运用上天给的恩典，全心服侍。
相信对方因此就会跟着来，跟从神，而不是做轮班。
-完-
小明心开开~
小明从星期六8.10am下午忙到晚上12.00am半夜
搬抬，然后集聚一齐做一些重复的动作，然后再做，然后讲故事，然后做开心果。
11.30pm 耶~~~ 能小休了~
4.20am起床带着小小生命去做工
做到6.00am，小明带生命去吃早点。
小明回家困睡从7.30am到8.05am。
小明和生命洗刷完就去堂会。
讲说喝了后。就驾单车载着生命送3包外卖，汗流浃背。
然后载送小生命会它的家。开兴了，回家赶快小休。
4.10pm起来，打开收音机，就被无辜的电了一下，开始心情下滑。
那倒不知道小明有多累吗。。？一点客气话都不做外表的礼物先。。。顶肺。
小明继续的开心，继续的欢笑~好好哦~~~哈哈哈！
搬抬，然后集聚一齐做一些重复的动作，然后再做，然后讲故事，然后做开心果。
11.30pm 耶~~~ 能小休了~
4.20am起床带着小小生命去做工
做到6.00am，小明带生命去吃早点。
小明回家困睡从7.30am到8.05am。
小明和生命洗刷完就去堂会。
讲说喝了后。就驾单车载着生命送3包外卖，汗流浃背。
然后载送小生命会它的家。开兴了，回家赶快小休。
4.10pm起来，打开收音机，就被无辜的电了一下，开始心情下滑。
那倒不知道小明有多累吗。。？一点客气话都不做外表的礼物先。。。顶肺。
小明继续的开心，继续的欢笑~好好哦~~~哈哈哈！
群狗里为大的服侍心值
领导人，领导团队的人。带领的。
比如，一群狗当中的成员做错了某件事，不管严不严重，那做大的一定会为着那成员给拼了,会不管如何都先保护属于团队的事。平息了另群恶狗，才来给个家法或训什么什么等。
我拆用狗来做比喻，是因为狗是人做到很不理想的最差点，差过于狗的程度的话，就被称“连狗都不如”。
让我给一个大家会可能认为我先入为主的话。
我遇到了一位少年和一位少年妈妈训架的场面，非常的心里被捅刀。
我看到了少年人被一个不是少年很喜欢的训式，当然少年妈妈是那个提供训式的高高高手。
如果你是少年，或很辛运的你有过少年时期，来试跟我幻想看看，你“亲爱忍了关了眼睛很久的”的母亲，在你朋友和陌生人面前，用你母亲买给你的书包往你的头直重丢，因不是好射手，重丢到你的心胸，距离大概有半架Myvi-Perodua酱子。假如是完全你的错，你有能力忍受酱的对待吗？有观众作证而且。
田嘉禾我不可以。好，完毕。
我们需要，很需要一个能够先保护团队的领导者，先不先入为主都应该这样去做。
我个人主观想，领导人做不到，是因为两头不到岸，就先往理性计算好坏法来定个激快的选择偏向哪方。
或者，肯本放弃了团队。
朋友你想什么，人家你的团员被大家庭的人突攻击。你何选择静静看看如何，才再来个处理，什么双方不管对错分而退步啊？
我了解可能任务太过大，手完全被肥肉包围，也看见了选择偏向的一方之行动。
我领悟了，不管如何，我选择保护上帝给我的生命，错对我的枪都先对外。
哪怕真的是团队的错，神给我的范围我只管守。
不要先放弃自己团队每一个生命，被骗都值得。
祷告让上帝能够赐我热诚和智慧来做领导的，有眼能看心不知去了哪里的人。
求上帝保守每个我接触的生命，让大家能够在主内发挥，身心健壮。
阿门。
继续焚烧的服侍！
比如，一群狗当中的成员做错了某件事，不管严不严重，那做大的一定会为着那成员给拼了,会不管如何都先保护属于团队的事。平息了另群恶狗，才来给个家法或训什么什么等。
我拆用狗来做比喻，是因为狗是人做到很不理想的最差点，差过于狗的程度的话，就被称“连狗都不如”。
让我给一个大家会可能认为我先入为主的话。
我遇到了一位少年和一位少年妈妈训架的场面，非常的心里被捅刀。
我看到了少年人被一个不是少年很喜欢的训式，当然少年妈妈是那个提供训式的高高高手。
如果你是少年，或很辛运的你有过少年时期，来试跟我幻想看看，你“亲爱忍了关了眼睛很久的”的母亲，在你朋友和陌生人面前，用你母亲买给你的书包往你的头直重丢，因不是好射手，重丢到你的心胸，距离大概有半架Myvi-Perodua酱子。假如是完全你的错，你有能力忍受酱的对待吗？有观众作证而且。
田嘉禾我不可以。好，完毕。
我们需要，很需要一个能够先保护团队的领导者，先不先入为主都应该这样去做。
我个人主观想，领导人做不到，是因为两头不到岸，就先往理性计算好坏法来定个激快的选择偏向哪方。
或者，肯本放弃了团队。
朋友你想什么，人家你的团员被大家庭的人突攻击。你何选择静静看看如何，才再来个处理，什么双方不管对错分而退步啊？
我了解可能任务太过大，手完全被肥肉包围，也看见了选择偏向的一方之行动。
我领悟了，不管如何，我选择保护上帝给我的生命，错对我的枪都先对外。
哪怕真的是团队的错，神给我的范围我只管守。
不要先放弃自己团队每一个生命，被骗都值得。
祷告让上帝能够赐我热诚和智慧来做领导的，有眼能看心不知去了哪里的人。
求上帝保守每个我接触的生命，让大家能够在主内发挥，身心健壮。
阿门。
继续焚烧的服侍！
两个选择
最近领悟了上帝允许的事，有点难熬。
星期日下午都会有练球（4。30）
就有一位小弟兄因朋友状况就被放了飞机一齐的玩滑板。
我就一口答应了，一齐和小弟兄玩。（全心投入的）
2.30 开始玩。。。。。。 : D
没有滑板基础，玩了，很高兴，乱乱玩。
从高处滑着下。
所以，我跌倒了，摔伤了膝盖。痛的站不起来，已知道内伤。
但是因着和小弟兄的约定，我选择继续疯狂。
倍小弟兄玩，到完。
so，到了练球时间，我真的练不到了，好痛。还好我能够完成练习时间，但是表现却佳。
这两件事，都是以服侍上帝而出发。我选择了生命，选择了建立小兄弟的思想，对人的信任，对我敞开。
上帝让我看见，无论如何，先要看见生命的重要。（我不是指学业或行为）
很多选择都是服侍神的话，先选能够改变生命，建立自己来出发。
是有代价，膝盖痛，但换来生命敞开。
我想，假如我做了另个选择，小弟兄会因为朋友失约而导致对上帝没有信心。
而我，就成功为主练了2个小时的球。
感谢上帝，让我领悟，从新调整选择服侍的重要性。
星期日下午都会有练球（4。30）
就有一位小弟兄因朋友状况就被放了飞机一齐的玩滑板。
我就一口答应了，一齐和小弟兄玩。（全心投入的）
2.30 开始玩。。。。。。 : D
没有滑板基础，玩了，很高兴，乱乱玩。
从高处滑着下。
所以，我跌倒了，摔伤了膝盖。痛的站不起来，已知道内伤。
但是因着和小弟兄的约定，我选择继续疯狂。
倍小弟兄玩，到完。
so，到了练球时间，我真的练不到了，好痛。还好我能够完成练习时间，但是表现却佳。
这两件事，都是以服侍上帝而出发。我选择了生命，选择了建立小兄弟的思想，对人的信任，对我敞开。
上帝让我看见，无论如何，先要看见生命的重要。（我不是指学业或行为）
很多选择都是服侍神的话，先选能够改变生命，建立自己来出发。
是有代价，膝盖痛，但换来生命敞开。
我想，假如我做了另个选择，小弟兄会因为朋友失约而导致对上帝没有信心。
而我，就成功为主练了2个小时的球。
感谢上帝，让我领悟，从新调整选择服侍的重要性。
生意朋友之开门初.
开门初
不懂是不是这样写. 但我是第一次出席生意朋友的开门初.
原来开门初就是男方在结婚前一天把家里开放给朋友来... 吃喝玩乐.
说真的我去到那里,还不懂,就敢敢去问生意朋友什么是开门初,羞耻.....!
那里有很多靠海鲜过活的商家,年轻的年长的都有.
有90%我不认识.
我就不管了,跑跑看看,喝喝酒,然后看大家玩我搞不懂的排九.
虽然没有朋友,但是我就是包着一个心态,要学,要懂格式的文化,好让能够改天成为神对这些人的祝福.
排九,我真的真的搞不懂.
我遇到朋友,很巧啦.. :)
跟生意朋友说再见,回到车时.
上帝让我看见就是,灵魂麻木,被蒙蔽,追求荣华.
虽然回家路途,问自己为何去,但是神对我心说话,神让我看见海鲜商家们的情况如何,属灵气氛是如何的.
我很感恩我爸爸没有像人家玩排九,到半夜那种习惯.
虽然我学了一点生意计策,但是还有很多我还没有看到的,经历的,我祷告神让我经历,好让我能够把握在生意上的一切.
让神来带领,我真的很多不会,没有体会过...
:)
不懂是不是这样写. 但我是第一次出席生意朋友的开门初.
原来开门初就是男方在结婚前一天把家里开放给朋友来... 吃喝玩乐.
说真的我去到那里,还不懂,就敢敢去问生意朋友什么是开门初,羞耻.....!
那里有很多靠海鲜过活的商家,年轻的年长的都有.
有90%我不认识.
我就不管了,跑跑看看,喝喝酒,然后看大家玩我搞不懂的排九.
虽然没有朋友,但是我就是包着一个心态,要学,要懂格式的文化,好让能够改天成为神对这些人的祝福.
排九,我真的真的搞不懂.
我遇到朋友,很巧啦.. :)
跟生意朋友说再见,回到车时.
上帝让我看见就是,灵魂麻木,被蒙蔽,追求荣华.
虽然回家路途,问自己为何去,但是神对我心说话,神让我看见海鲜商家们的情况如何,属灵气氛是如何的.
我很感恩我爸爸没有像人家玩排九,到半夜那种习惯.
虽然我学了一点生意计策,但是还有很多我还没有看到的,经历的,我祷告神让我经历,好让我能够把握在生意上的一切.
让神来带领,我真的很多不会,没有体会过...
:)
以前的 Beverly Hill 的 Easy Way 的那个女生。
以前的事！！！忘到一干二净的事。
我突然间想起有一个女生借了我钱说要还，到现在想起还没有还。有7-8年了！哇！为什么现在才想到？！
记得她说会还我的，她以前以前本来很好看，但突然间变了很男人婆。
不懂现在她在哪里了。。。
重要的不是钱啦，只希望她现在能够有上帝的恩典，不要再到处借钱了。
希望以后有机会看到她，是一位爱上帝的基督徒。
主啊，怜悯她吧，虽然连名字都想不起了，但是主你让我想起这事，是你的计划，祷告求你挽回她的心，服侍你，有丰盛的生命，阿门。
我突然间想起有一个女生借了我钱说要还，到现在想起还没有还。有7-8年了！哇！为什么现在才想到？！
记得她说会还我的，她以前以前本来很好看，但突然间变了很男人婆。
不懂现在她在哪里了。。。
重要的不是钱啦，只希望她现在能够有上帝的恩典，不要再到处借钱了。
希望以后有机会看到她，是一位爱上帝的基督徒。
主啊，怜悯她吧，虽然连名字都想不起了，但是主你让我想起这事，是你的计划，祷告求你挽回她的心，服侍你，有丰盛的生命，阿门。
About penetration of Direct-Selling Biz Method or Pyramid Scheme in Church.
While that time I having my BA Degree, I came cross about Direct-Selling Business Module & heard plenty about Pyramid Earning Scheme, which friends relatives around me are involving in it, indeed reaping profit that make me envy and jaw-drop.
These module of business have nothing wrong and harmless to the society nowadays, of course needed to be legally registered and obtained proper recognition of certificate by/under the authorities or government itself.
Since so-young age until my next second, my parent have been and always taught and nag me about the danger of involve in such module of business, mention the risk of irrelevant, unpredictable, instability and harming friendship.
Of course, I finally able to have opportunity to be approached and felt it by myself. Respective agents approach to me skillfully, indefinably, in term of soft-manner and etc. Above all these, these require much hand/mental skills and boldness from the agents to approach clients without fail, I respect this much.
Okay, sector of church. As church-goer, we knew and always admit that church is a huge pool of people network, just a second we able to find out the grapevine of church members, knowing that this fellow have close relationship with other fellows. Yupe, the networking church's people win compare to outside communities.
Yea, that is it, a brilliant mind will indeed go through a big study relate to "Penetrating Church", for consistent of business-stability, wide-range and chances of obtaining new fresh client can be achieved.
But, thank God no matter how brilliant mind that Chinese-man have in head, the bible had already proved and justified the answer regarding these scenario or issue as we may define it.
Remember Jesus did madly remove over the assets of the trading corner of God's temple. He shouted out the temple's function was/is to allow people to worship God some more, not for people to see opportunity to focus in reaping business's profit then say Hallelujah to God Almighty, which means if no business, no Hallelujah.
I perform full-respect to the official full time agents that employed by the Direct-Selling's company or whatever Pyramid Scheme's organization. If the agents wholeheartedly is to provide excellent products to suitable clients and bring-out services that people are touched, then I will love to study and have a dealing with him/her.
However, kindly do not enroll to a part-time of these business modules if only for own-interest, such as achieve own annual saving or profit that set in 2 years ago and more. I hate this, due to the motive of doing business with clients already side-tracking. Besides that, I dislike agents using excellent speech and melting skills to touch people in order to register into some pyramid scheme that belongs to own-line, and the agents still insist not to increase downline, but to provide excellent advancement for clients' business OR actually selling specific products more then focus on increasing downline for own-interest, so called "sincerely".
Predictable, church will be facing many challenges of rumors that pastors will need to own more sleepless night and swallow more panadol, if these business module happen to penetrate-conquer the whole church-members, although management or the leaders do not involve in it.
Non-church-goers will start to question and spreading issues that harmful like cancer cause the holy or pure heart church-goers be involved in the hurricane of rumors (that church is a business center).
Of course, motive of preach the Gospel of Jesus consist of much ways. However, a good and strategically motive to touch non-believer, doesn't mean it will sized to the culture of non-believer, example, the concept of riches' privilege and blessing in specific place are different compare between people to people.
Conclusion, own-thinking and group-pray-feeling-accurate motives that is excellent is brilliant, however if these motives harm the body of Christ then must be removed to avoid the workhand of God continue moving and touching the pure-heart. Moreover, direct-selling and pyramid always neutral if the agents or organization able to prove themselves as transparent as crystal, showing all the cash flow to all the potential clients, business-good, no haste in smoothly forcing people become subordinate, attractive and healthy products, registered-clients able to have goodfaith and peaceful mind in God and the business.
Therefore, if people gossiping about church relating to business-module, church,with the perfect-whole ready-explanation to God & people, church have nothing to hide and needless to justify. Yet if vice versa, we should evaluate ourselves regardless how rotten and above high we already achieve, in order to remove it, followed by the cancer of eating up the work of God's glory. Please.
Zavier Tiam Kar Hoh
These module of business have nothing wrong and harmless to the society nowadays, of course needed to be legally registered and obtained proper recognition of certificate by/under the authorities or government itself.
Since so-young age until my next second, my parent have been and always taught and nag me about the danger of involve in such module of business, mention the risk of irrelevant, unpredictable, instability and harming friendship.
Of course, I finally able to have opportunity to be approached and felt it by myself. Respective agents approach to me skillfully, indefinably, in term of soft-manner and etc. Above all these, these require much hand/mental skills and boldness from the agents to approach clients without fail, I respect this much.
Okay, sector of church. As church-goer, we knew and always admit that church is a huge pool of people network, just a second we able to find out the grapevine of church members, knowing that this fellow have close relationship with other fellows. Yupe, the networking church's people win compare to outside communities.
Yea, that is it, a brilliant mind will indeed go through a big study relate to "Penetrating Church", for consistent of business-stability, wide-range and chances of obtaining new fresh client can be achieved.
But, thank God no matter how brilliant mind that Chinese-man have in head, the bible had already proved and justified the answer regarding these scenario or issue as we may define it.
Remember Jesus did madly remove over the assets of the trading corner of God's temple. He shouted out the temple's function was/is to allow people to worship God some more, not for people to see opportunity to focus in reaping business's profit then say Hallelujah to God Almighty, which means if no business, no Hallelujah.
I perform full-respect to the official full time agents that employed by the Direct-Selling's company or whatever Pyramid Scheme's organization. If the agents wholeheartedly is to provide excellent products to suitable clients and bring-out services that people are touched, then I will love to study and have a dealing with him/her.
However, kindly do not enroll to a part-time of these business modules if only for own-interest, such as achieve own annual saving or profit that set in 2 years ago and more. I hate this, due to the motive of doing business with clients already side-tracking. Besides that, I dislike agents using excellent speech and melting skills to touch people in order to register into some pyramid scheme that belongs to own-line, and the agents still insist not to increase downline, but to provide excellent advancement for clients' business OR actually selling specific products more then focus on increasing downline for own-interest, so called "sincerely".
Predictable, church will be facing many challenges of rumors that pastors will need to own more sleepless night and swallow more panadol, if these business module happen to penetrate-conquer the whole church-members, although management or the leaders do not involve in it.
Non-church-goers will start to question and spreading issues that harmful like cancer cause the holy or pure heart church-goers be involved in the hurricane of rumors (that church is a business center).
Of course, motive of preach the Gospel of Jesus consist of much ways. However, a good and strategically motive to touch non-believer, doesn't mean it will sized to the culture of non-believer, example, the concept of riches' privilege and blessing in specific place are different compare between people to people.
Conclusion, own-thinking and group-pray-feeling-accurate motives that is excellent is brilliant, however if these motives harm the body of Christ then must be removed to avoid the workhand of God continue moving and touching the pure-heart. Moreover, direct-selling and pyramid always neutral if the agents or organization able to prove themselves as transparent as crystal, showing all the cash flow to all the potential clients, business-good, no haste in smoothly forcing people become subordinate, attractive and healthy products, registered-clients able to have goodfaith and peaceful mind in God and the business.
Therefore, if people gossiping about church relating to business-module, church,with the perfect-whole ready-explanation to God & people, church have nothing to hide and needless to justify. Yet if vice versa, we should evaluate ourselves regardless how rotten and above high we already achieve, in order to remove it, followed by the cancer of eating up the work of God's glory. Please.
Zavier Tiam Kar Hoh
何谓领袖？
领袖是什么？
1。不是带领的那位，而是人人愿意跟从的那位。
2。不是讲话大声，而是会影响代表说话的那位。
3。不是傻傻听话照办，而是知道有问题会先商量决定。
4。不是地位，是生命榜样。
5。不是静静忍受，而是分享和讨论解方。
6。不是态度问题，而是理念。
7。不是限制人，而是观察比较他人和自己的限制。
8。不是交待被拒绝的事给属下罢了，而是会加以分享用别种方法达到目标的那位。
教会领袖
往往都是被训练成驯良的咩咩羊，目的是为了上层好办事。
往往都是先让步不理，认为什么都先交托神就可以了，目的就是不要让自己名誉或前途受困。
往往自己的认为和文化是最讨神喜悦的，然后要属下多造着学习自己的认为和文化。
往往觉得自己属灵生命可以盖过一切悟性的事物。
往往都是不要先的。
往往都是说上帝会先祝福自己然后到属下。
往往都有自己社交的饭碗，不是的话，踩你都傻。
往往觉得牧师说的就是那位。
往往会暗示他人关于自己领袖的身份，好让好办事。
谢谢。
领袖，衣服的领袖。都有自己的风格。
全部不一样风格的领袖参与动功的话。
不得了，上帝会喜悦。
领袖，不是批评他人好让自己多一点领袖，多一点靠近上帝，灵修时多一点话题向耶稣祷告。
1。不是带领的那位，而是人人愿意跟从的那位。
2。不是讲话大声，而是会影响代表说话的那位。
3。不是傻傻听话照办，而是知道有问题会先商量决定。
4。不是地位，是生命榜样。
5。不是静静忍受，而是分享和讨论解方。
6。不是态度问题，而是理念。
7。不是限制人，而是观察比较他人和自己的限制。
8。不是交待被拒绝的事给属下罢了，而是会加以分享用别种方法达到目标的那位。
教会领袖
往往都是被训练成驯良的咩咩羊，目的是为了上层好办事。
往往都是先让步不理，认为什么都先交托神就可以了，目的就是不要让自己名誉或前途受困。
往往自己的认为和文化是最讨神喜悦的，然后要属下多造着学习自己的认为和文化。
往往觉得自己属灵生命可以盖过一切悟性的事物。
往往都是不要先的。
往往都是说上帝会先祝福自己然后到属下。
往往都有自己社交的饭碗，不是的话，踩你都傻。
往往觉得牧师说的就是那位。
往往会暗示他人关于自己领袖的身份，好让好办事。
谢谢。
领袖，衣服的领袖。都有自己的风格。
全部不一样风格的领袖参与动功的话。
不得了，上帝会喜悦。
领袖，不是批评他人好让自己多一点领袖，多一点靠近上帝，灵修时多一点话题向耶稣祷告。
文莱公干之不是见证的见证。大雨大风。
大概去了文莱公干有3-4回了。
每一回都很欣慰，因为上帝都顾念我，看顾我。
29/8/2013 这次去，上帝再次的让我看见他的信实和威严，是我都怕怕的那种。
述说一下，当天上了渔排，在预备及处理时，突然很大很大的风，很大很大的雨吹打着我们，因着没有穿上衣的我，雨打在我身上会痛，像被小石沙般打到身上。“原来是台湾的大风吹来的”
大家当然因着气候的影响就停了工，自己就顾了自己。当时我们是全身是湿湿的，完全避不到那风雨。更厉害的是，我没有穿衣，但是又不会冷，多亏在冷房被锻炼的那些日子。就躺着在那里困一困，想到像耶稣浆，哈哈！
都要快0530pm了，还是大风大雨。
一个员工就说很夜了，老天爷停雨啊！！！
我就心想，是时候做工了，不然又必须搞到半夜。
就起立，去到能看到天云和看不到的对面岸。我就心祷告，“上帝，够了，能用的天水都装得满满的，太多了，感谢主。够了上帝，要做工了，不要下雨了。”
上帝对我说，“孩子，用信心并奉耶稣名命令停雨。”
那时没想多，就服了，我就说 “奉耶稣的名，命令你停雨停风，开天吧！”
还以为什么圣经的妙词。
真的不到3分钟，黑黑浓浓的大云及看不到四周围的乱象，就在我的头顶，那大云像被撕裂般的，看着开一个大洞。看了洞后，太阳耶！！！
然后渐渐对面岸的云开始散去。哇！！！
听了风，雨，雨水装满，没有摇摇的浪。。。
我傻眼，心里想这是恐怖！很大的上帝！
员工就感谢天公。
大家都归队做工，做了一下，我心里一直挣扎，圣灵翻转心，要我分享我所看到的给那位员工。挣扎了，就随便对员工讲了：“刚才我对上帝说停雨，在我的头上真的开了云，雨就奖停了。”
还以为我做了还是，但是那员工就回我说，“你以为只有你讲么？我还求土地公，天公，主耶稣，观音等神叻~ 不止一位神！真的要谢谢，我们会亚庇经过庙堂时记得要进去恩拜下。”
我非常的心叹，还以为分享后能影响员工的生命就对上帝的看法，为主发光浆。但是失败失落。
就那么一下，很恐怖，一阵不懂那里往来的风，一下很准的吹走了那员工的防水衣布，掉入了海，因着那防水衣尺度大，布料因素，我们就还以为会飘在海面上，捞上就好了。
那里知道，不到6秒，衣快速的沉进了海，消失无终。。。来不及找钩钓上。。。沉了。
大家就无言的继续工作。但有声音对我说，刚发生的事，那员工深知是他讲和所信而造成的，不必多说。吓得我。。。原来是上帝的作为。我想若那员工知是上帝来的小教训的话，水衣没了，应该不会去庙恩拜了吧？都打平了。加上我必须赶回去参加观看教会的活动~~
数天，归亚庇时，员工真的没有要求进庙恩拜，哇哈哈哈！
还来得及到教会参与！
这个经历让我感到，上帝不是乱来被侮辱，特别是事情被蒙听时，不好归荣耀或分荣耀与其它什么神，是不能够的。上帝掌权就是了。上帝是很有恩典，很有timing，和很有威严的上帝，不要开完笑，不把荣耀归给其它的。。
感谢主，这经历真的踏打进我的心底，上帝恩典和威严不是拿来开玩笑。
阿门。祷告我能够有信心的求，有胆量分享，也知道一切荣耀尊贵归给上帝！Hallelujah!
每一回都很欣慰，因为上帝都顾念我，看顾我。
29/8/2013 这次去，上帝再次的让我看见他的信实和威严，是我都怕怕的那种。
述说一下，当天上了渔排，在预备及处理时，突然很大很大的风，很大很大的雨吹打着我们，因着没有穿上衣的我，雨打在我身上会痛，像被小石沙般打到身上。“原来是台湾的大风吹来的”
大家当然因着气候的影响就停了工，自己就顾了自己。当时我们是全身是湿湿的，完全避不到那风雨。更厉害的是，我没有穿衣，但是又不会冷，多亏在冷房被锻炼的那些日子。就躺着在那里困一困，想到像耶稣浆，哈哈！
都要快0530pm了，还是大风大雨。
一个员工就说很夜了，老天爷停雨啊！！！
我就心想，是时候做工了，不然又必须搞到半夜。
就起立，去到能看到天云和看不到的对面岸。我就心祷告，“上帝，够了，能用的天水都装得满满的，太多了，感谢主。够了上帝，要做工了，不要下雨了。”
上帝对我说，“孩子，用信心并奉耶稣名命令停雨。”
那时没想多，就服了，我就说 “奉耶稣的名，命令你停雨停风，开天吧！”
还以为什么圣经的妙词。
真的不到3分钟，黑黑浓浓的大云及看不到四周围的乱象，就在我的头顶，那大云像被撕裂般的，看着开一个大洞。看了洞后，太阳耶！！！
然后渐渐对面岸的云开始散去。哇！！！
听了风，雨，雨水装满，没有摇摇的浪。。。
我傻眼，心里想这是恐怖！很大的上帝！
员工就感谢天公。
大家都归队做工，做了一下，我心里一直挣扎，圣灵翻转心，要我分享我所看到的给那位员工。挣扎了，就随便对员工讲了：“刚才我对上帝说停雨，在我的头上真的开了云，雨就奖停了。”
还以为我做了还是，但是那员工就回我说，“你以为只有你讲么？我还求土地公，天公，主耶稣，观音等神叻~ 不止一位神！真的要谢谢，我们会亚庇经过庙堂时记得要进去恩拜下。”
我非常的心叹，还以为分享后能影响员工的生命就对上帝的看法，为主发光浆。但是失败失落。
就那么一下，很恐怖，一阵不懂那里往来的风，一下很准的吹走了那员工的防水衣布，掉入了海，因着那防水衣尺度大，布料因素，我们就还以为会飘在海面上，捞上就好了。
那里知道，不到6秒，衣快速的沉进了海，消失无终。。。来不及找钩钓上。。。沉了。
大家就无言的继续工作。但有声音对我说，刚发生的事，那员工深知是他讲和所信而造成的，不必多说。吓得我。。。原来是上帝的作为。我想若那员工知是上帝来的小教训的话，水衣没了，应该不会去庙恩拜了吧？都打平了。加上我必须赶回去参加观看教会的活动~~
数天，归亚庇时，员工真的没有要求进庙恩拜，哇哈哈哈！
还来得及到教会参与！
这个经历让我感到，上帝不是乱来被侮辱，特别是事情被蒙听时，不好归荣耀或分荣耀与其它什么神，是不能够的。上帝掌权就是了。上帝是很有恩典，很有timing，和很有威严的上帝，不要开完笑，不把荣耀归给其它的。。
感谢主，这经历真的踏打进我的心底，上帝恩典和威严不是拿来开玩笑。
阿门。祷告我能够有信心的求，有胆量分享，也知道一切荣耀尊贵归给上帝！Hallelujah!
田嘉禾的身份
大家好，不懂大家对于自己的身份会不会看的很重。但是至于我叻就非常的重视。往往我的身份有一点出乎意料的问题。
好，
我是马来西亚人，公民。
我出生于沙巴，亚庇，QE政府医院。
从我还不会认识字到修专科都处在沙巴州。
我家园在亚庇，我出生过后才搬过两次家，都在亚庇区内。
家人父母都与我一齐住，亚庇。
社交，活动，教会当然也在我爱的沙巴。
但是，
我不是沙巴人，我既然不是沙巴人。
此事发现在Custom提升到公民身份电脑化后，飞机场。。。
记得那次我还以为我是沙巴人时，手空空的从飞机出来到Custom，手就只有身份证。
Custom员工竟然要求我交出我的PASSPORT！
她说我不是沙巴人，中间有12不一定代表是沙巴人。若是沙巴人，一定会有个小H在自己的身份证右下角。
我的真真的没有。。。很伤心。 这事发生大概是三四年前吧。。。
现在我做工了，去文莱公干差一点就回不来，因为我的PASSPORT没有“工作准证-WORKPASS”，我又被打击了，Custom打了一个印说道只允许我留在沙巴2个星期。
今天，我成功申请到了WORKPASS，是非常不简单的是，文件和钱都要预备和完整。
高兴？对我来讲，不合理，完全表示不到我的兴奋。
我不是沙巴人，也不是西马仔。西马不是我长大及有盼望的地方。难道我要搭船到马来西亚海的中间做水屋吗？
但是，才发现，马来西亚中间的海岛是属于印尼的，无言。。。
我现在在沙巴做工，沙巴出身的我，需要WORKPASS来过日子，每一年更新一次我的我Workpass。我的身份需要每年更新，真的是。。。。。。。。。。
什么原因造成？
ans: 我父母不是沙巴人，不管我有几沙巴都好，我不可以成为沙巴人。
好，谢谢，我心不舒服。
好，
我是马来西亚人，公民。
我出生于沙巴，亚庇，QE政府医院。
从我还不会认识字到修专科都处在沙巴州。
我家园在亚庇，我出生过后才搬过两次家，都在亚庇区内。
家人父母都与我一齐住，亚庇。
社交，活动，教会当然也在我爱的沙巴。
但是，
我不是沙巴人，我既然不是沙巴人。
此事发现在Custom提升到公民身份电脑化后，飞机场。。。
记得那次我还以为我是沙巴人时，手空空的从飞机出来到Custom，手就只有身份证。
Custom员工竟然要求我交出我的PASSPORT！
她说我不是沙巴人，中间有12不一定代表是沙巴人。若是沙巴人，一定会有个小H在自己的身份证右下角。
我的真真的没有。。。很伤心。 这事发生大概是三四年前吧。。。
现在我做工了，去文莱公干差一点就回不来，因为我的PASSPORT没有“工作准证-WORKPASS”，我又被打击了，Custom打了一个印说道只允许我留在沙巴2个星期。
今天，我成功申请到了WORKPASS，是非常不简单的是，文件和钱都要预备和完整。
高兴？对我来讲，不合理，完全表示不到我的兴奋。
我不是沙巴人，也不是西马仔。西马不是我长大及有盼望的地方。难道我要搭船到马来西亚海的中间做水屋吗？
但是，才发现，马来西亚中间的海岛是属于印尼的，无言。。。
我现在在沙巴做工，沙巴出身的我，需要WORKPASS来过日子，每一年更新一次我的我Workpass。我的身份需要每年更新，真的是。。。。。。。。。。
什么原因造成？
ans: 我父母不是沙巴人，不管我有几沙巴都好，我不可以成为沙巴人。
好，谢谢，我心不舒服。
梦之煎熬
哇！刚从梦中睡醒，梦见当我驾车载着我的女朋友时，我们看到我女
然后，女
煎熬的梦。睡醒后，很痛苦，伤痛的恨。
不懂是不是工作时间缭乱，睡眠乱乱来而组成的梦之煎熬。
当然，我追问祈求上帝关于这梦。上帝让我看见的是，感情世界的田嘉禾。上帝很明确的让我知道，我毕竟为了什么会心理伤痛。
1。我在感情世界里是非常的自卑，抬不起头来。
2。我对自己没有把握。
3。我的过去失败和压迫限制。
4。我不能在感情里被挑战。
把整个参来讲讲。
我会对感情伤痛而敏感，梦里我会伤痛而醒是因为我有挑战者正跟我争我的对象。我的结果会是，我完全没有把握留住我的对象而气馁，放弃我的对象，的那种伤痛。
梦里，我不允许对象另有考虑及选择因为我的才干和魅力比挑战者不佳，去风油快完了。的那种自卑。
我感到彻底失败，当挑战者有靠山，而且是我对象的亲朋戚友，家人等。那种等着失败的难堪。
最讨厌的是，我的对象承认她有留空间给自己考虑对方是否我还是挑战者。
我因为会怕在我的手里的对象，白白被对方托去。所以会先放手，然后后果支付。
女朋友啊，原来吵架的时候，会提到那个这个男子的名，问是不是在比较，建议女朋友跟那个这个男子来往。是我的怕，伤痛。
--- 上帝真的让我看到我的软弱了。。。我祷告的事。。。依然还是，求上帝不要让女朋友开始“寻找”，求上帝让挑战者。。。都。。。。 haiz.. 不懂啦。
-我不能控制世界男生-
上帝你做主吧。若梦是预言还是什么，你掌权。
阿门。
很吵！ :)
笼里的小鸟，叫了很久。差不多就把它给忘了是如何和用什么样的方式捕抓回来的。
叫了很久。真的叫了很久。
这种鸟不是到处都有，可能就只有月亮有那么的一两只。就是因为鸟不适应环境，飞来飞去，只好丢它去笼里，哈哈哈！
要放它出来，但是不可以，太太太凶了。可能会把真个半地球给毁掉。
好消息。它总于自然的安息去。放不放出来，都已经自由了。
鸟叫没了，安静得多~~~
但，很奇怪的是，邻居好像听闻过这个龙里的鸟，很凶的鸟，很不好的鸟，在我的家里。
鸟安息，都烧尽了，连骨都没了。
邻居还在犹豫，那鸟长什么样的。
若问道烧鸟的人，安静中还是会很烦。鸟叫了太久，变成了阴影。
笼里没鸟，但是那个叫声真的是缠着太离谱，翻会头看鸟笼，还是会很烦。
叫了很久。真的叫了很久。
这种鸟不是到处都有，可能就只有月亮有那么的一两只。就是因为鸟不适应环境，飞来飞去，只好丢它去笼里，哈哈哈！
要放它出来，但是不可以，太太太凶了。可能会把真个半地球给毁掉。
好消息。它总于自然的安息去。放不放出来，都已经自由了。
鸟叫没了，安静得多~~~
但，很奇怪的是，邻居好像听闻过这个龙里的鸟，很凶的鸟，很不好的鸟，在我的家里。
鸟安息，都烧尽了，连骨都没了。
邻居还在犹豫，那鸟长什么样的。
若问道烧鸟的人，安静中还是会很烦。鸟叫了太久，变成了阴影。
笼里没鸟，但是那个叫声真的是缠着太离谱，翻会头看鸟笼，还是会很烦。
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